Haven't had much time for diary updates. Haven't had much time for anything.
I had a shower this morning for the first time in 3 days! And
I've managed to take the dog for a walk most days and go to the local shops now and again. But apart from that all I do is feed Ella, change nappies (and clothes) and rest/sleep.
I've had a few visitors and most of them help me by cleaning up the kitchen or bringing groceries or cooked food.
I haven't been getting as many visits as I thought I would get, which made me feel a bit sad on the weekend. But then I don't realy have the time nor energy to entertain them anyway, so I shouldn't complain. Maybe I've a minor case of the baby blues? I have thought a couple of times: "Oh no, is this what my life will be like from now on??? Waiting for baby to fall asleep, waiting for baby to wake up..." It was partly triggered by hearing my ex rave about yet another fantastic party he'd gone to, which me think my party days are now well and truly over... And the being totally dependent on the baby's rythm now is a bit daunting.
On trhe bright side, I'm getting very proficient on doing things with one hand and am gaining lots of strength in my upper arms.
Ella is still feeding well. People sometimes ask me how often she feeds, but there's no pattern to it, it seems. Today a community health nurse will come and weigh her. Always exciting, since it is the only measure I have on how she's doing.
The swelling in my perineum is finally starting to go down, which is bliss. And the midwife told me it is safe for me to take my medication (for the ankylosing) while breast feeding! So physically I feel fine. Tired, but good. People tell me I'm glowing and look well, but I'm never sure if that's not one of those things you just say to new mothers.
Like "motherhood suits you". Not sure what they mean by that...
OK, Ella's falling asleep. Time for me to go and rest too.
I had a shower this morning for the first time in 3 days! And
I've managed to take the dog for a walk most days and go to the local shops now and again. But apart from that all I do is feed Ella, change nappies (and clothes) and rest/sleep.
I've had a few visitors and most of them help me by cleaning up the kitchen or bringing groceries or cooked food.
I haven't been getting as many visits as I thought I would get, which made me feel a bit sad on the weekend. But then I don't realy have the time nor energy to entertain them anyway, so I shouldn't complain. Maybe I've a minor case of the baby blues? I have thought a couple of times: "Oh no, is this what my life will be like from now on??? Waiting for baby to fall asleep, waiting for baby to wake up..." It was partly triggered by hearing my ex rave about yet another fantastic party he'd gone to, which me think my party days are now well and truly over... And the being totally dependent on the baby's rythm now is a bit daunting.
On trhe bright side, I'm getting very proficient on doing things with one hand and am gaining lots of strength in my upper arms.
Ella is still feeding well. People sometimes ask me how often she feeds, but there's no pattern to it, it seems. Today a community health nurse will come and weigh her. Always exciting, since it is the only measure I have on how she's doing.
The swelling in my perineum is finally starting to go down, which is bliss. And the midwife told me it is safe for me to take my medication (for the ankylosing) while breast feeding! So physically I feel fine. Tired, but good. People tell me I'm glowing and look well, but I'm never sure if that's not one of those things you just say to new mothers.
Like "motherhood suits you". Not sure what they mean by that...OK, Ella's falling asleep. Time for me to go and rest too.
Lin
