This truly is my last diary entry. This time it's for real!
I could write pages and pages about my experiences as Ella's mum. But I'm sure all of you could about your kids too. And we can't all have a diary here.
I'll start my own private one now.
But I now finally feel like one of you cause I figured out what is meant by "bonding" with your child. It took me leaving her before I realised just how much I mean to her. She didn't choose me. I'm the only mum she knows. And to her I am now the best mum in the world. She needs me like no one else has ever needed me.
I don't find her being so needy stressing or burdening anymore. I feel very privileged to be needed by her, since I think she is the most beautiful, most precious creature that ever existed. I am so lucky to be able witness her change and develop into this amazing little individual.
No one knows her like I do. I may not be perfect at fulfilling all her needs. But I will do the best I can.
It is a very special bond indeed. I was right during my pregnancy when I knew that I could not imagine these feelings. It is better than I could have ever expected it to be. This feeling of love, of fulfillment. And so rewarding.
I knew I made the right choice when I decided to bring this child into this world. And I know every moment I spend with her from now on will only confirm that.
So, I want to propose a toast to all of you: to motherhood! Cheers!
I could write pages and pages about my experiences as Ella's mum. But I'm sure all of you could about your kids too. And we can't all have a diary here.
I'll start my own private one now.But I now finally feel like one of you cause I figured out what is meant by "bonding" with your child. It took me leaving her before I realised just how much I mean to her. She didn't choose me. I'm the only mum she knows. And to her I am now the best mum in the world. She needs me like no one else has ever needed me.
I don't find her being so needy stressing or burdening anymore. I feel very privileged to be needed by her, since I think she is the most beautiful, most precious creature that ever existed. I am so lucky to be able witness her change and develop into this amazing little individual.
No one knows her like I do. I may not be perfect at fulfilling all her needs. But I will do the best I can.
It is a very special bond indeed. I was right during my pregnancy when I knew that I could not imagine these feelings. It is better than I could have ever expected it to be. This feeling of love, of fulfillment. And so rewarding.
I knew I made the right choice when I decided to bring this child into this world. And I know every moment I spend with her from now on will only confirm that.
So, I want to propose a toast to all of you: to motherhood! Cheers!
Lin
